Not a whole lot of things have happened since I last blogged, except God has been teaching me some cool things. So, with my personality I love to have control of situations and know what is going on for the most part. I like spontaneous, but only if I can still do what I want to do. Selfish and self-centered? Yep. Just a bit. I also worry too much about my future and, let's just be real here, who I will marry. Coming to GAP I have had quite a bit of marriage prep courses... So it really gets a girl thinking. Another key thing about me, when I start liking a guy I fall fast and hard then eventually wake up and realize how ridiculous I had just been. All this being said I recently realized I have a problem. My problem is refusing to give things to God and taking them into my own hands and figuring it out on my own. You see, people have told me to "give your feelings for _________ to God." Every time I was ever told that I nodded my head and would say "Yeah, I'll do that" and not have a clue how to do that or even what that means. So this last week while I was struggling with giving my emotions up, again trying to figure out how to do it on my own, it hit me. The first step to giving things to God is sometimes letting Him show you how to give things up to Him. At this realization I called out to God to show me how to start this process, and guess what?! He answered with a big fat yes. I can only imagine His joy over knowing that I am finally getting the picture. The best part, that night I was already being tested. I guess He really wanted to see how serious I was about this new change. I'm not sure I passed with flying colors exactly, but getting through was so much easier with His help and calling out to Him in my weakness. So girls, moral of the story, when someone tells you "give your feelings for ______ to God" nod your head, smile, then PRAY. Tell God what you're feeling, thinking, that you need His help and just ask Him to give you a hand in how to figure it out. I promise He will, and you will feel a lot better about it! Eventually I started looking at John Doe as a buddy and it makes being around him less weird and tense (completely on my part). So give things to God and it will be easier to not care about what others, especially guys, think about you.
Love & Rockets
Allysa<3
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