Recovery

The last year has brought soooo many emotions, pain, hurt, sadness, depression. What I sometimes forget are the happy and joyful times that have gotten me through. Yes, I have stumbled along the way, but God is always there to pick me back up. He is not just going to leave me in misery and sin, He wants to pick me back up and He will if I let Him. Lately, I have heard Him saying "I know you messed it up a bit, but I still love you and I want to help you." I am slowly realizing that God will help as much as He is asked. That does not mean He is limited, sometimes He would just rather us as for help than Him automatically fix everything for us. Life would be too easy if it worked like that,  I am finding that not everything comes naturally. Somewhere along the way I have lost my joy. Happiness that I once could not explain has been gone. I have been praying for God to give it back, and slowly but surely, He gave it back to me. Having the Fruit of the Spirit cannot just be something you work for, it has to be something you pray for. On my own strength I have nothing, no love, peace, joy, mercy, nothing! What I am starting to learn is that I cannot do anything in this life completely on my own.